Twenty One

It's pretty darn challenging when God decides to answer your prayers.
Kim.

Losing Myself

Friends and family make me happy, and I heart them dearly.

But sometimes, I stand alone, and see the unseen road ahead of me.
Uncertain of what God wants me to do.
Not knowing where this road will take me to.

No matter how strong and wise I try to be, the sheer vastness of the uncertainty and the unknown still scare me.

And I feel the tension between God and me, and the tension within myself.
I even try to complain to God, "What do You want from me? I am just a kid.."

Yet there is nothing else I can do than to stand, take a deep breath, and say a silent prayer,
Before I keep on running along the road that I had decided.

God.. I desire to lose myself in You.

Joyce

p.s. "A Christian walk is never meant to be alone." -M. Lau

"The Pursuit of Happiness"

"I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor - it is the gift from God."
-Ecclesiastes 3:12 [New King James Version]

At the end of the day, I just want to be happy.
And ultimately only God can make me happy, because happiness comes from God.

It is "the gift from God."

Kimmy

:)

p.s. I never watched the movie btw.. lol.

"The Warrior of Light"

Some inspiring and enriching quotations from various books of Paulo Coelho:

"Having the courage to take the steps we always wanted to take is the only way to show that we trust in God."
from Brida

"Open your heart and listen to what it is telling you. Follow your dreams, because only a man who is unashamed of himself can manifest the glory of God."
from The Valkyries

"For the warrior of light there are no ends, only means. Life carries him from unknown to unknown. Each moment is filled with this thrilling mystery: the warrior does not know where he came from or where he is going."
from Manual of the Warrior of Light

"Often, during combat, the warrior of light receives blows that he was not expecting. And he realizes that, during a war, his enemy is bound to win some of the battles. When this happens, the warrior of light weeps bitter tears and rests in order to recover his energies a little. But he immediately resumes the battle for his dreams."
from Manual of the Warrior of Light

"When we renounce our dreams, we find peace and enjoy a brief period of tranquillity, but the dead dreams begin to rot inside us and to infect the whole atmosphere in which we live. What we hoped to avoid in the Fight -disappointment and defeat- become the sole legacy of our cowardice."
from The Pilgrimage

"Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back to where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?"
from Eleven Minutes

"We're allowed to make a lot of mistakes in our lives, except the mistake that destroys us."
from Veronika Decides to Die

"In his or her life, each person can take one of two attitudes: to build or to plant. Builders may take years over their tasks, but one day they will finish what they are doing. Then they will stop, hemmed in by their own walls. Life becomes meaningless once the building is finished. Those who plant suffer the storms and the seasons and rarely rest. Unlike a building, a garden never stops growing. And by its constant demands on the gardner's attentions, it makes of the gardener's life a great adventure."
from Brida

"Every day, God gives us, as well as the sun, a moment when it is possible to change anything that is causing us unhappiness. The magic moment is the moment when a "yes" or a "no" can change our whole existence. Every day, we try to pretend that we do not see that moment, that it does not exist, that today is the same as yesterday and that tomorrow will be the same too. However, anyone who pays close attention to his day will discover the magic moment. It might be hidden in the instant that we put the key in the door in the morning, in the moment of silence after supper, in the thousand and one things that appear to us to be the same. This moment exists, a moment in which all the strength of the stars flows through us and allows us to perform miracles."
from By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

The fact is that we don't live in a happy happy land. The reality is dry, harsh, and pretty messed up sometimes. And fears are real and alive in many people's souls: fear of failure, defeat, rejection, disappointment, and hurts..
But we have a choice to let the fears overrule and direct our paths or to surrender them to God, a choice to let God and His Love be our strength, joy, and hope to bounce right back into life, and a choice to start the new day with a smile and laughs.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
-Joshua 1:9 [New King James Version]

Kimmy, fighting the victorious battle


Happy birthday Tom! Love you lots!! :D

By the Living Water.

"Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,
And whose hope is in the Lord.
For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fear when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit."
-Jeremiah 17:7-8 [New King James Version]

Let God put a smile on your face! :)
Love,
Joyce.

:/

"Hear my cry, O God;
Attend to my prayer.
From the end of the earth I will cry to You.
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings."

-Psalm 61:1-4 [New King James Version]

People come and go. from one place to another and from this life to the next.
I know that’s just how life goes, but truthfully, this is one thing that I will NEVER get used to. It's always so sad when God decides to take away..

Father God,
You are my refuge and my hope.
You are my hiding place, where I turn for protection and rest.
You are my secret place, where I turn broken and sing praises of Your glorious name..
I desire to dwell in the shelter of Your presence...

In Him,
Kimmy.

p.s. Something my brother shared with me:
http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ee73e63418003b47d7d5
God loves me. God loves you. And we are all BEAUTIFUL children of God.
His Love is sooo AMAZING!!!
:)

"When I think about the Lord"

"When I think about the Lord
How He saved me
How He raised me
How He filled me with the Holy Ghost
How He healed me to the uttermost
When I think about the Lord
How He picked me up, turned me around
How He set my feet on solid ground
It makes me want to shout
Hallelujah! Thank you, Jesus!
Lord, You're worthy
Of all the glory, and all the honor, and all the praise!"

-'When I think about the Lord'

humming this song in my heart is like carrying birds chirping songs of joy inside me. like a magic spell that makes you so happy. :)
have an awesome week & live it out to the fullest guys!! :D
lots of love,
kimmy.

p.s. "you have to learn it, live it, and pass it on to others." -maxwell

"Know Thyself"

"Know thyself," said Socrates.

knowing oneself got to be one of the most valuable knowledge and wisdom that one could possibly have, living on this earth. and it is always a continual learning process.
knowing oneself partly means knowing to appreciate the beautiful you, and to accept and to be aware of the ugly you.

concerning our weaknesses, one has to always actively search and actively be aware, so that one can actively control and actively change. learning how to live with our weaknesses and how to turn our weaknesses into our strengths,, that's growing. and that's moving forward.

Father God, we are so weak. and only by Your grace and power, can we strive to become more like You, Jesus.. give me strength, so that i may yield to Your will and not mine. give me wisdom and open my eyes, so that i may learn how to love others.

Father God, use me, my strengths, my weaknesses, and my all for Your glory.

"not that i have already attained, or am already perfected; but i press on, that i may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. brethren, i do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing i do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, i press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."
-philippians 3:12-14 [new king james version]

love,
kimmy.

"welcome to the planet
welcome to existence
everyone's here
everyone's here
everybody's watching you now
everybody waits for you now
what happens next?
what happens next?

welcome to the fallout
welcome to resistance
the tension is here
the tension is here
between who you are and who you could be
between how it is and how it should be

maybe redemption has stories to tell
maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
where can you run to escape from yourself?
where you gonna go?
where you gonna go?
salvation is here

i dare you to move
i dare you to move
i dare you to lift yourself
lift yourself up off the floor
i dare you to move
i dare you to move
like today never happened
today never happened before"

'dare you to move' by switchfoot